Last week was rough. Emotions were at an all-time high and I cried. A lot. I was tired. And stressed. I missed my older baby. And I was way too hard on myself for things I couldn't control. I definitely didn't feel like my normal, happy-go-lucky, optimistic self. Not to mention, I think the hubs thought I had fallen off the deep end. No joke. Nonetheless, he came to my rescue and gave me six solid hours of sleep. I kept Brantley home from daycare for two days and had a fantastic, summer-like Saturday and Sunday with him in between. Just what the doctor ordered.
It's a new week and I'm finally feeling like myself again. It helps knowing Holden is packing on the
Point being, these newborn days can be exhausting. And challenging. And beyond stressful. And while I sometimes sit half-awake overnight while feeding the little man dreaming about the day when I'll once again get a full night's sleep, I am also incredibly thankful for the life I live. I have two healthy and happy children that I love so, so much and a husband who constantly reminds me of the good job I'm doing. Despite the laundry that's not folded. And the dinner that isn't on our table. And (gasp!) having to feed our baby expensive, store-bought formula. So, so lucky and so, so grateful for it all.
And while I look forward to that day when we're past this overwhelming newborn stage (because let's be honest, it only gets better from here), I also appreciate the constant reminder to enjoy every moment. To not wish away any stage, any day, or even any heartache, because as Darius Rucker reminds us, "It won't be like this for long."
He didnt have to wake up
He'd been up all nite
Lay'n there in bed listen'n
To his new born baby cry
He makes a pot of coffee
He splashes water on his face
His wife gives him a kiss and says
It gonna be OK
It wont be like this for long
One day soon we'll look back laugh'n
At the week we brought her home
This phase is gonna fly by
So baby just hold on
It wont be like this for long
Four years later bout four thirty
She's crawling in there bed
And when he drops her off at preschool
She's clinging to his leg
The teacher peels her off of him
He says what can I do
She says now dont you worry
This will only last a week or two
It wont be like this for long
One day soon we'll drop her off
And she wont even know your gone
This phase is gonna fly by
If you can just hold on
It wont be like this for long
One day soon she'll be a teenager
And at times you'll think she hates him
Then he'll walk her down the isle
And he'll raise her vale
But right now she up and cry'n
And the truth is that he dont mind
As he kisses her good night
And she says her prayers
He lays down there beside her
Till her eyes are finally closed
And just watch'n her it breaks his heart
Cause he already knows
It wont be like this for long
One day soon that little girl is gonna be
All grown up and gone
Yeah this phase is gonna fly by
He's try'n to hold on
It wont be like this for long
It wont be like this for long
Oh sweet friend! I literally started writing a post about this same song bc it came on in the car and my husband and I literally sat in silence listening to it and I was sobbing at the end because somedays can be just so hard but it goes by so so fast. You are right that you are so blessed with two beautiful, healthy boys, a supportive husband and you are a GREAT mom! They are all you need- sleep or no sleep!! Hang in there lady!! Newborn stage is so hard, but there is a reason why you had another one because you forgot all the bad and focused on all the great things with Brantley!!
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